what will you do?

i hate it.
i feel the urge to get angry,but as far as i know,
i never shout it out loud,
it HURTS so bad,
inside.
what will you do?
i know you will do none
for I was nobody to you,
nothing special of me,
for I only a burden to you,
I did everything you told,
without bursting my temper,
without shouting you back that i was right,
for i did it none,
you never support for what i like,
for what i dream of,
you always hold me back,
hated it,
criticize for everything,
everything of my interests,
will you just listen for a second?
without cutting before i finish what i'm trying say?
have you thought I never say no,
and complained for everything I did for you,
COMPLAIN,
that HURTS.
thats why I never ask you to do it instead,
and for I always back you up,
for what you have done,
done many things,
and there,
I'll be off soon,
and you did nothing to ease my journeys,
but you have done it,once,
for I always sacrifice for you,
and now im on my limit already,
i cant hold in me anymore,
i write,
because through this,
at least i feel good letting it go,
but why here,
cause,
i never feel like i am home

one day,
i hope you will know or realise.
cause i know you never count any my goods now,
i know,
cause i was there,
when you said things about me,
I WAS THERE.





*for who i will never mention names here,cause i feel and i know you know im writhing about you*
see im too good to never actually yelled back at you.
how long can i stand alone,
I AM ALONE.







butter.